Its been a long time since I’ve felt this good about anything in my life.
I may not know where i’m going yet, or have it all figured out like everyone else, but i’m at a good place, surrounded by good people who go out of their ways to make sure i’m smiling, and everything is just really good.
So sending positive vibes to all my lovely followers! I wish you all nothing but good things too! :)
24 years has taught me a lot of things,
Like how when you’re a kid, impossible is just another word you can’t spell.
You can stay outside building snow forts all day and not ever think of the cold.
The monsters under your bed can be defeated with flashlights and if you think really really hard you can make them go away with your mind.
There isn’t a cut or scrape Mummy’s kisses and some ice cream can’t fix.
If you smile at everyone, and use your manners, you can make all kinds of new friends to play with, and when people are mean you still share your toys because its the right thing to do.
But in 24 years you learn a few extra secrets,
Like how sometimes the coldness in someones eyes and touch,
is enough to make you shiver under blankets for days.
No matter how much you wish they’d leave, or how many nights you sleep with the lights on some monsters will always be there to haunt your dreams.
Or sometimes, the wounds we’re hiding are self inflicted and even your mothers tears can’t fix the heartbreak seeping out of them.
And how even if you smile at everyone, be the best person you can and share all your heart with them even after they’ve wronged you, people have a tendency to leave. Like night turns to day they make their marks on your life and are gone by dawn, leaving your to wonder if their fleeting shadows are even worth trying to grasp between your fingers.
You’d think 24 years would have taught me how to just let go.